5659.) I don't want to hurt you, but I don't think I like you anymore. Something inside me ruins all my relationships. Because whenever I get too close to someone, the feelings always disappear. And after they leave, the feelings always come back.
Certain people have a way of saying things that shake us at the core. Even when the words do not seem harsh or offensive, the impact is shattering. What we could be experiencing is the intent behind the words. When we intend to do good, we do. When we intend to do harm, it happens. What each of us must come to realize is that our intent always comes through. We cannot sugarcoat the feelings in our heart of hearts. The emotion is the energy that motivates. We cannot ignore what we really want to create. We should be honest and do it the way we feel it. What we owe to ourselves and everyone around is to examine the reasons of our true intent.
“And I’ve tried to find happiness in a bigger TV, a car and a watch. I’ve tried to find happiness in power over others and the respect of the people around me. And I appreciate your patience, while you stand here, right in front of me. Waiting for me to come to my senses.”—I Wrote This For You: The True Purpose Of Industry (via kari-shma)
Yesterday was another feeling of heaven on earth. I feel so blessed with good people around me… being their friend, talking to them and just being me around them. Thanks for the coffee Miss B and for staying with us in the station. Sorry I made you wait for an hour. love you. Towards the end of anther’s shift, her sister came and got us pizza.. I’ve been craving for pizza lately and it was just a blessing that she treated us with yellow cab with buffalo wings!!! YUMYUMYUM.
ohh and the best part? was sharing half of the day with pareng anther. okey, I’ll end here cause she hates senti moments and I feel like il barf if il sent some more. hahaha.
“Loving someone who doesn’t love you back is hell! Don’t ever let anyone convince you that you can be happy with someone who doesn’t love you. And don’t ever love anyone more than he loves you.”—Patrick Seaton, Once and Always by Judith McNaught (via mariatheclownhaturrr)
“Instead of focusing on how much you can accomplish, focus on how much you can absolutely love what you’re doing. Be there completely. It’s amazing how much non-resistance and presence changes everything.”—
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No seriously, winning the Stagg awards is important to alex thats why I’m trying to make everyone cast their votes for her, she needs prolly a hundred more to topple down 2 bassists that are topping the list. Alex by the way is third on the list but I want her to be the FIRST! We can do this! Yes we can!
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Everything’s falling, and I am included in that Oh, how I try to be just okay Yeah, but all I ever really wanted Was a little piece of you
Everything will be alright
- be be love, Racheal Yamagata
They say, the end justifies the means, I wanna keep telling myself that til I convince myself that we don’t have fault on what’s going on. I keep telling myself, it ain’t our fault, it’s been going on, it’s meant to happen it was just a matter of time. But you know what? We’re not that heartless and no matter how we try to look at things in a different perspective, the fact remains that somewhere, someone is hurting.
So I don’t know where this will lead too but I hope all of these, they happen for a reason.. for a fucking good reason.
I had the most amazing time last night, twas short but sweet. Had dinner with swanie (who I haven’t seen for the loongest time) at Da Vinci’s Paseo Banawa. I wanted to get pizza so I was ecstatic when she agreed to eat at a pizza place. Usually when we plan dinner, we make sure to find a place thats either new or “healthy” but we had no restaurant in mind twas on the last minute we thought of the place. While we were on our way (cause I was again, late), I told her my preference was bacon deli but if she wanted another variant I could go for what she wants but I asked her to add bacon on the other half so she wouldn’t have to eat the half with bacon on it. And it cracked me when she said “We’re getting very vegetarian with your extra bacon”, reading her text made me laugh! I soo miss swanie!
So we talked about her work, my school and our qualms about the people we have to work or deal with. I love it how we just understand each other and even if we are so different in so many ways it’s always good to know that we maintain that respect for each other. We agreed on how prolly we would click as a couple, if not only we were straight. hahahaha
It’s always refreshing to have someone to talk to, who knows who you really are and wouldn’t judge you for the wrong and screwed up things that you do. When they say something thats prolly hurtful but you don’t mind at all because well it’s the truth that you needed to hear. When they just say the right things at the right time.
5543.) I'm so scared of losing you that I argue with you so it won't be too hard if you leave me. You're all I want but I'm so afraid. Afraid of just giving you my unconditional love. I know you wouldn't cheat or leave, but... just in case. I love you. I just don't want to admit that I need you.